Bloodshed

Bloodshed, strife, and hostilities harrowing, hapless, misunderstandings drench once ecstatic estates make entrance for demolition descending transcending psychopathy

Ancient nemesis nearing completion, unbalancing, aberrations, mordant circumstances arise, and retrogrades expiration of the mindset and physical devolution 

Desiccation efflorescence , languishing celestial spheres, effervescing allotments , whilst miscreants bowdlerize admirable ,symmetrical, resplendent gravestone testaments capsizing 

Seraphs I implore, beseech you to restore me, yet nostalgia,repentance never disembarks, matchless, individual, singularity, exanimate revenants circumscribe all about me

Masticate and manducate my husk, surveying hardship, anguished afflictions,  crawling for a conciliation that shalt not be gripped by bludgeoned blaring beheading

An attestant unto my own ingestion 

 

 

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Secretive Nights Of Desire

 

 

I can feel you centermost, equidistant, in sentiments smearing, affixing, and anointing my protoplasm, thew, and corpuscles in all duration upon alabaster, frosted, transparent, immaculate, milk white breastbone bosoms

Entering anatomy bare-skinned, stripped, divested unto your endearment with my quavering lips , tottering shadowy shape, and cherry of Spring awakening awaiting completion for the sensory paroxysm

Skimming every contoured crevice unbound, sultry moon, eclipses neath sheets of satin craving, and echoing of something new humming happy lullabies to my heart , the dark unknowings, Coming and goings of a heart hearkened by both lust, love, and passion

Turn me to ashen bone, lick the destruction we construct as one, darling we are doomed, two crescendos illuminating this circle of hell, doing things in the midnight madness pitch black, running out of time

The desert roses open in blooming blazes, stones weigh our heaving, inter-weaving indifference, so strip me down, and bind my wrists to this bed of temporary nightmarish , fantasy, fucking dreamery

Raven songs, weeping willows, and secretive serenades tear up our whispered liasions, addicted to every inch of your intricate ,intelligent, inner being , so lay me upon this pillowing pillar of diligent dripping phantasm of pleasantry

 

 

 

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Beautiful Dreaming

 

Waves of ultramarine,cerulean,azure blues beckoning me farther into floral fragrance washing upon embankments of jade,chartreuse, emerald seashores

Bushes yielding wielding wild mulberries that have a piquancy of haven like hills where evergreens decorate my wishful, whimsy, phantasm tucked within ideal , exemplary villages all my own

Tangerine Tiger Lilies resting , embellishing my breastbones and highlighting my indigo stands , flowing freely down to the small of my back

Incandescent, alight, moonlit fireflies waltz all about me, my giggling glee, unconstraint ,impertinence, adrift beaming expressions

Wading through babbling creek beds, wind caressing my face, sound mind, and the honeysuckles aromatic , thick clean air fill my once breathless lungs

Push my toes in mud just to feel the sensation of it squish,slosh, and slime

Press my face to an array of sunflowers ,watercolors of different shades, the sky thundering above , so many white doves fly circles around me, and summer rain so warm falls upon my wounded flesh

Healing , feeling thrilling, drop my white sun dress to the ground , naked, I gaze up at the puffy, plump clouds , sunlight shimmers upon my ivory flesh , and I hope again , lounging in fields of frenzied salmon hued daisies

Napping among monarch butterflies fluttering impassioned in the breeze, watching as they land upon me , and I spread my arms out open wide, for the first time I can see so clearly

Liberated from unsavory, unkind thoughts, no voices , nor shame , or mind games just encompassing beauty all around as far as this strange dreamscape stretches out on

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The Aftermath

Cracked sink , new lows, your face fluctuates these peeling walls, and blotted out blank spaces 

Separated , runaway thoughts, flickering lights , and bouquets,batched, botched goodbyes 

How long can I play into my own denial, my frustrated understanding, and fucked up way of thinking ? 

Is it the front yard I keep staring at , the vacuous bed, scarcity of your belongings, or all left unresolved, maybe the lack of sound pervading these pointless rooms

Permeating passive aggressiveness , warring with your lawyers, and watching you become someone I am beginning to loathe yet used to look at with love rather than this accustomed disgust 

The pointless, meaningless hookups I use to try and fuck you from pounding my skull with happier memories before the shit hit the fan and you decided I just was not good enough anymore 

I still remember the day I caught you in our marital quarters letting your lover do all the things I only thought you ever wanted me to 

How foolish I felt seeing you two as one, I slammed the pictures of our wedding day off the end-tables , ran from you and your apologies given only because you got caught up in your double sided games, and I took that champagne I was saving for your birthday to chug what just happened away 

The worst part was how numb I became when the battle began, you took every joy, all the happiness , and bliss when you went and did this 

So once you were all moved out, I took a torch and lit it up, because I cannot stand to look at this structure we once built together with all we felt 

I just want to let it all go permanently 

 

 

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Recurring Nightmare

Clandestine, un-illuminated, cataclysmic, and nightmarish inky saturated sea rumbling, clamoring, crashing inexhaustibly. Multifarious depths limitlessly teeming with treacherous tentacles splicing, suctioning flesh from bone slurping greedily on unfortunate souls, victims of the desolate, dreary, nether dimensions. Scales slime ridden clutching against panic stricken flailing limbs. A serpent like beast weaving swift and viciously through this frigid liquid hell. Translucent milky eyes beneath gelatinous lids flicker. Click. Click. 

It sends tsunami-likened ripples. Confusion. Prey swimming frantically for escape yet shore-less infinities grant no such mercies. It’s gargantuan plated head rears up ravenously. Razors spin in its mouth. Mighty jaws widen in a portal of pain. It dives in a dining hour of devour. Gulping a silencing swallow finale. Grinding it’s meal. The grey , gloomiest, depressive, cloudy, sunless labyrinth sky seeming to glower above. Beasts begin the cycle again, laying in wait for human flesh and lost dreamers to meet peril. 

 

 

 

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Burning Learning

        I couldn’t let my heart fall away. All I knew twas death , self destruction, bloodied orange flame , and a victim to calculated mind games. Cursed carrion teeming with maggots, roasting rotten aroma of floundering flesh falling from piss toned bone weathered, worn. A swarm . Locusts lay in the soiled soil in my core. Singing for scorn. Raving Revenge. Cheeks clustered puss. Cockroaches. Metamorphosis. I can feel icy depths churn from all I shall learn.

Malice. Built my vacant cathedrals. A mansion forged from betrothing betrayal. No princess. Just a queen resting her hardened, harpy soul upon a steely throne thrilled by despair. My breastbones adorned in armored thorns cauterized by moody, depressive grief. A shredded art piece powdered in petunias a dribbled shade of sapphire jade. 

Vile monstrosity. Shadow serpentine. Persephone. Pegasus. Plowed. Pulverized yet rising always in eager disdained deviance. Love lost .Strength found.

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Let You In …Again

Scribbled monotone words, lifeless, as they leave your lips

All those stray tears cascading frozen winterized dew drops 

Reddened cheeks , lost emerald irises blinking back heartbreak, and shaking limbs

You see me differently, the girl you left behind, yet somehow your heart brings you back here every time 

Did he walk away one more time?Or is it my touch you miss?The way I bought you ice cream and held you close to my chest when your days were all awry 

When I chased after you the day you got in that beat up pick up with him , screaming your name, and collapsing in that cloud of dust because the pain became too much

But every damn time I let you back in, I don’t pull away when you press those full lips to mine, and tangle your fingers up in my teal hair 

Give in to your advances, feathery touches, slight sighs, and undress of my heart

Two naked sea nymphs, in the bubbles of this collective of robbing chronicles , your nails digging into my back, and your brunette locks tickling my naked breasts so sensually 

Skin on skin, my parted mouth on your small breasts so pert, as you purr my name so impurely perfectly, my fingertips exploring every familiar inch of you 

From the tub to the bed, lost in what will never be mine, yet still you let me believe , slit on slit, I will grip your hips and gaze up lovingly at you like always do 

You will curl up into the curve of my bodice, I will cover you with warm blankets and let you smile that smile at me 

Sleep will come after I breathe you in amidst our finale, he will call , you will be gone before the rising of the sun, and I will wake up alone once again 

That sensation of being used , confused, and that ache, that fucking ache will resonate again

I’ll pour some whiskey on the rocks to dismantle this cluster of flashbacks, of you, and how much I let you do 

 

 

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